Sometimes I try to imagine how Jahar might be feeling at this very moment. I know it’s impossible, because only You truly know his thoughts and his heart – but I try to imagine anyway. I imagine that Jahar feels extremely unloved right now. That is so completely far from the truth. You love him enough to shield him that night in the boat and protect his earthly life so that he might have a chance at eternal life. You love him enough to die for him so that he may be washed completely clean and made new. In You, he could feel more loved than he’s ever felt in his life.
I imagine that Jahar feels unwanted. Wrong again. You want him to be Yours so badly that You placed him on the hearts of people all over the world to help pray him into Your kingdom. You want him so badly that you are relentlessly pursuing him every single day. You want him to come home so desperately that you are waiting at the gates of Heaven like the father waiting for the prodigal son to return. In You, he is so wanted.
I imagine that Jahar feels alone. I know that he isn’t. You are there in that cell with him…..holding him, comforting him, drying his tears, holding his hand. You never leave him alone. Not for a second. In You, Jahar would never have to feel totally alone.
I imagine that Jahar feels hopeless. Most people in his situation would. But if he gives his life to You, You can use him to help share Your love and build Your kingdom. He could have such incredible purpose. If he gives his life to You, it doesn’t matter what they do to him on this Earth….he would have eternity to look forward to in Your glorious presence. Although his earthly situation may be hopeless – in You, Jahar has more hope than he could ever imagine.
I wonder if Jahar feels confused at all….if he’s holding fast to his beliefs, or if he’s had any dreams or visions yet that have caused him to question. Please, Lord Jesus, reveal yourself to Jahar. In You, he could have so much clarity.
I wonder if Jahar feels proud and boastful over what he did…..if he believes that he is going to Jannah because his alleged act of jihad pleased Allah. Please open up his eyes to his sin Jesus. He is a great sinner – but You are a greater Savior. In You, he can see his transgressions for what they are, and he can realize his need for Your forgiveness Jesus.
I wonder if Jahar feels angry or hateful……if the enemy has hardened his heart at all. Jesus please release him from Satan’s grasp. Protect his heart from becoming hardened and filled with hatred and rage. In You, he can be filled with peace and love.
I imagine, God, that with the death penalty on the table – Jahar feels scared. In You, there is no need for fear. You are stronger. 1 John 4:18 says “Such love has no fear, because perfect love expels all fear. If we are afraid, it is for fear of punishment, and this shows that we have not fully experienced his perfect love.” Jesus, pour Your perfect love out over Jahar. With You going before him, he has no one to fear.
Jahar needs you so badly Jesus. So badly. Reveal yourself to him and open up his eyes to the truth, so that he may be free from the chains that bind him. He is lost, but in You he can be found. Find him Lord Jesus. Please find him.
I pray this in Your beautiful and glorious name. Amen.