I have a few songs on my prayer list for Jahar that are just pure happy and joyful. They remind me of what could be for him. As I was driving home praying for him the other day, “I’ve Found Jesus” by Delirious came on my iPod. The part that really made me connect with Jahar’s situation was when he sang:
“Well you lifted me from where I was,
Set my feet upon a rock,
Humbled that you even knew about me.
Now I have chosen to believe,
Believing that you’ve chosen me.
I was lost but now I’ve found…I’ve found Jesus.”
Just like the lyrics of the song say, I truly believe that God has chosen Jahar and that He can lift him out of the depths of his despair into the light. After thinking about that, I couldn’t stop smiling listening to the rest of the song.
“Well I feel like dancing in the street ’cause Jesus is alive,
To join with all who celebrate that Jesus is alive.
Well the joy of God is in this town ’cause Jesus is alive.
For everybody’s seen the truth that Jesus is alive.
And I will live for all my days
To raise a banner of truth and light,
To sing about my Savior’s love,
And the best thing that happened –
It was the day I met You.”
As I listened to that – I pictured Jahar in my mind so full of joy that he was DANCING and singing about His Savior’s love. May he get to a place where the best thing that happened in his life isn’t something that happened before all of this mess……it’s the moment that He met Jesus.
We serve a God that is able to create joy even in the darkest places.
“You have turned my mourning into joyful dancing. You have taken away my clothes of mourning and clothed me with joy.” Psalm 30:11
“He will once again fill your mouth with laughter and your lips with shouts of joy.”- Job 8:21
“God places the lonely in families; he sets the prisoners free and gives them joy…..” – Psalms 68:6
Jahar, if spared the death penalty – will likely spend the rest of his life in prison and perhaps the rest of his life in solitary confinement. I can’t imagine a greater despair. But Jesus can turn his mourning into dancing and laughter. Although he may be physically bound – Jahar CAN experience unimaginable freedom and joy that can only be found in Him. And so I will keep those joyful songs on my prayer playlist so that, from time to time – I can take a brief intermission from pouring my heart out to God in desperation for my future brother – and just take a minute to picture him dancing joyfully in the presence of our Savior.