A few weeks ago, I was in the middle of praying for God to give my precious future brother a questioning and seeking heart and for all of his searching to lead him to the Truth……when I had a thought that made me stop in my tracks.
We’ve all been there in one way, shape, or form. If you did Santa, the Easter Bunny, and the Tooth Fairy in your house growing up – think back to what it felt like as a child the moment you realized that none of it was true. Maybe you felt betrayed by your parents. Maybe you felt angry that they lied to you. Maybe you felt disappointment that future holidays would never be the same. Maybe you felt embarrassed that you had believed all of that for so long. For a child, that can be a crushing realization.
Maybe you’ve experienced betrayal at the hands of someone you loved deeply and trusted completely. At that moment, you feel like every single thing you’ve been living has been a complete and utter lie. You feel angry, hurt, and broken-hearted. You wonder how you could have been so naïve. You don’t know what’s real anymore….who you can trust….what you can believe.
Now imagine that….maybe over a long period of time….or maybe in an instant….you realize that the religion that your parents brought you up to believe……that you really believed was the truth…..is not the truth at all. I realize this is slightly different than the above scenarios because a.) In this situation your parents don’t believe they are lying and b.) You are simultaneously experiencing the utter elation of the Holy Spirit and the joy of being welcomed home as a child of God…..but what would that feel like for Jahar….to realize that he has killed four people, critically injured hundreds of others, and completely destroyed his life here on earth in the name of a false god that does not exist? The weight of that consumed me as I lifted Jahar up in prayer that day.
Whether it’s happening right now or it happens 50 years from now, as Jahar comes to know the Truth – I pray that God will be there to comfort him. I am quite certain that he will need help to sort out the laundry list of emotions that inevitably come with such a heavy realization. However, I rest in my thankfulness that one day, Jahar will serve a God who is able to be his Help.